icubud: (Belief and understanding)
2025-07-11 07:04 am
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Welcome aboard

My Johari Window

My LJ is 50% friends only, so if you would like access to the whole shebang please comment to
this post. I am always looking fwd to meeting new people :O)

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2017-06-18 08:47 am

"I want a little piece of mind to turn to"

Great short article by Ms. Quade on the Victory Girls blog.

Did plumbing work yesterday, which was a first. So far, so good. Thank God. It would be great to save a couple hundred dollars. Rain and thunderstorms this morning. I hope it breaks the humidity and not contribute to it. Carol leaves Wednesday morning for Santa Barbara, she comes back Saturday evening. I am taking half of Thursday and all Friday off (Lord willing). Hoping for great quality time with no interruptions or distractions. Please!!!

The darkness of thoughts and mind are still something I am having to battle constantly. God is getting me through it but I really wish all the blackness would simply vanish. Something I find interesting is yesterday in my reading I came across this portion of scripture that I have read many, many times before but yesterday God pointed out to me something I had not noticed. Joh 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." (emphasis added by me) He showed me it is a choice. I know a lot of my "issues" is chemistry but I still have a choice to drown or be engulfed by it - or battling it. Not to let it be troubled, afraid. Other verses then came to mind immediately that also pointed to this truth such as Philippians 4:4,6-9 (not be full of care...) and what to actually think on.


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2017-06-15 03:53 pm
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2017-04-29 08:35 am
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"...I heard the thunder clappin', felt the desert burnin'..."

 

Ok, so here we are again. A weekend. 
Life is ___________.

Quite exasperating when you look at things and end up saying to yourself something to the effect of _____________.

Currently the thunder is rumbling but not near as loud as last night. We had a couple hours of continuous very loud bangs and rumbles and the room lighting brightly due to the lightning. Cool stuff. Supposed to wrap this morning before noon. It looks like the early darkness of 8 pm outside right now. 

I started taking a new probiotic on Monday called ActivatedYou. I will give a "full report" on it in another week.
Day 9 or 10 or something like that - in ref to tapering off the gabapentin. I am not sure if the headaches I am getting are because of that or poor sleep. I'm gonna keep at this level one more week and then try another 10% reduction.

We dropped off Chester after work yesterday to a RV mechanic in order to give it a thorough once over (for insurance) and then to give it an oil change, tune up and a pair of new brakes.

I so often feel that this is true:

All the world's indeed a stage
And we are merely players
Performers and portrayers
Each another's audience
Outside the gilded cage

Actually that verse runs through my head a few times everyday.

Also for some odd reason these words from "Sara" written by Stevie Nicks has been running in my head the past three days:

But now it's gone 
They say it doesn't matter anymore

I just about jumped out my skin. Shew!  HUGE thunder boom. 

New show recommendation on Netflix: The Scottish series: Shetland. If u enjoyed Inspector Wallender, I think u will really enjoy it. They have three seasons out there which equals 14 episodes.

POURING outside. Now looks like midnight. God, please don't allow us to lose power.

Sammi – Samantha, my youngest niece turned 16 on Monday. Unbelievable!! Family is coming over tomorrow (LW) to celebrate her birthday. God, please – allow it, actually make it – go smooth and fun.

 [Everything just flickered. AH!!!]

Question for each of u. Do u often catch yourself editing your LJ? Ja know, something like, “I can’t share that” or “they’ll think bad of me” or --- yada yada, u get it.

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2017-04-23 04:48 pm
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You're not sure what's going on here; But you're sure it isn't right...

I wonder what it is about Sundays that I am usually:
  • very much out of whack
  • worse headaches
  • a feeling of detachment from my body
  • and often, brewing if not bubbling anger
I had noticed this probably 10 years ago. At the time I figured it was for some specific thing at the moment.

But now, after 500 Sundays under the belt, it is still that way. No change in diet. No difference in sleep/not-sleep issue/routine. No observable difference in any behavior changes from other days. 

Along with this, whatever "this" is; time on Sundays seems to go at twice the pace. It seems like 10 minutes ago it was 3:30. And when I noticed it was 3:30, I was expecting the clock to show 1. No other day does time move so freaking rapidly.

After a false start, this evening I start the taper. 
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2017-04-16 09:44 am
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a moment

1 Corinthians 15:1-7, 12-22  Moreover, brethren, I declare unto you the gospel which I preached unto you, which also ye have received, and wherein ye stand;  (2)  By which also ye are saved, if ye keep in memory what I preached unto you, unless ye have believed in vain.  (3)  For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures;  (4)  And that he was buried, and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures:  (5)  And that he was seen of Cephas, then of the twelve:  (6)  After that, he was seen of above five hundred brethren at once; of whom the greater part remain unto this present, but some are fallen asleep.  (7)  After that, he was seen of James; then of all the apostles (12)  Now if Christ be preached that he rose from the dead, how say some among you that there is no resurrection of the dead?  (13)  But if there be no resurrection of the dead, then is Christ not risen:  (14)  And if Christ be not risen, then is our preaching vain, and your faith is also vain.  (15)  Yea, and we are found false witnesses of God; because we have testified of God that he raised up Christ: whom he raised not up, if so be that the dead rise not.  (16)  For if the dead rise not, then is not Christ raised:  (17)  And if Christ be not raised, your faith is vain; ye are yet in your sins.  (18)  Then they also which are fallen asleep in Christ are perished.  (19)  If in this life only we have hope in Christ, we are of all men most miserable.  (20)  But now is Christ risen from the dead, and become the firstfruits of them that slept.  (21)  For since by man came death, by man came also the resurrection of the dead.  (22)  For as in Adam all die, even so in Christ shall all be made alive.  

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2017-04-13 09:53 am
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YYZ playing inside my head

Well dang.
(Just felt like "saying" that.)

Carol is with Chester till 1 and I get quiet me time. I told her the plan for today is no plan. No expectations. None of the trappings. She will have a tough time making that a reality.

Our weather here is gorgeous. Windows open again. Birds singing. Nice. Supposed to be mid 70s as a high.

Did some reading yesterday and plan to do more of it today.

I decided to import my LJ to DW and then use DW as the posting journal and set it to cross-post to here. I will use LJ directly for keeping up with my LJFs. If I set it up right, your comments to my LJ will cross-post to my DW as well. I had set up a DW acct back in 2012 as a back up for my LJ but then I discovered the LJ Book site and was no longer concerned about using DW as a back up. Dawned on me yesterday after I posted that if I used this as I just described I would have real time back up of for each journal account so why not do that?

Now if I could figure out how to have a backup of my Tumblr accounts.

Monday I had a dental hygiene appt and yesterday I had my eye exam. Kinda feeling like a car getting maintenance. I think my increase in headaches is tied to my eyes straining. She said after examining that my Rx has changed significantly. So fingers crossed.

Guess that's it.
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2017-04-12 12:20 pm
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LJ user agreement

Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] zimon66 post I now have a better idea.
I have a paid account so most of the stuff does not pertain to me.
And I don't write anything that violates Russia's concern.

"The terms don’t apply to permanent, paid accounts, so some of the platform’s most popular users – who would otherwise be in danger from the 3,000 viewers rule – don’t have to worry yet. In addition, realistically, these changes are aimed primarily at Russian users."

"The new Terms of Service (TOS) agreement bans “political solicitation” and requires that any content which is considered “inappropriate for children according to Russian law” be marked as adult/18+ content. Given Russia’s attitudes toward LGBTQIA content, this likely means any queer content must be marked as 18+."   quotes from here.

If this is what all guff is about, no problem here.

If this is what all the guff is about, no problem here as far as I am concerned..

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2017-04-12 12:08 pm
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Um, well...

I took PTO this week, Wed-Fri. Carol is taking it tomorrow and Fri. I am feeling out of sorts, not sure why. Maybe its the result of all the emotional stuff surrounding Carol's mom. No clue. Ultimately no biggie. Carol is focusing on the RV which has been officially named - Chester. She has completed a lot of work inside and out. I thank God we have this for her to focus on right now.

I saw this morning that Steve Perry did participate in the ROR HOF induction but did not perform. I'm glad he showed up, w/o him - no JOURNEY.

Lots of stuff swirling in our country but I don't have the energy to post/write about it. I really don't like in many ways how our society has become.

Yes United Airlines is deplorable. We no longer use them. While the physical removal of a passenger from their plane so an employee could fly for free has made news, I am surprised that this occurrence has not. Fast fwd to 1:07.  Of course it is also an example of how feminism, dems and ACLU fail us and our country. Why do I write that? Where is the outrage, lawsuit and investigations?  Why is it that MSM and TPTB want us to bow down to mohommad and his god? Why do they want us under sharia law? Why is it that liberals and dems prefer them and their culture?

*exhales* Ok - so I did write a little about current events.

I plan to start my tapering off gabapentin/neurotin tomorrow. I'm planning to do 10% reductions every two weeks.

Oh yeah, I see some of u commenting that u are concerned or are moving to DW because of the updated LJ user agreement. I read it --- ok -- scanned it. What is there in it that is disturbing?

Guess that is it for now.
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2012-12-31 11:59 pm
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Books I read in 2012

Books completed in 2012:
The Day After the Dollar Crashes by Damon Vickers
Suicide of a Superpower by Patrick Buchanan
The Case for Christ by Lee Strobel
Beastly Things by Donna Leon
In Obscura by Kay Reindl
World War Z - Brooks
The Charisma Myth - Cabane
Deadline - Mira Grant

Currently reading:


Books on reading pile:
Sinister Forces by Peter Levenda (50%)
Biography of Abraham Lincoln (10%)
Remember Who You Are - Icke (5%)
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2012-12-31 11:59 pm
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Books I read in 2012

Books completed in 2012:
The Day After the Dollar Crashes by Damon Vickers
Suicide of a Superpower by Patrick Buchanan
The Case for Christ by Lee Strobel
Beastly Things by Donna Leon
In Obscura by Kay Reindl
World War Z - Brooks
The Charisma Myth - Cabane

Currently reading:
Deadline - Grant (75%)

Books on reading pile:
Sinister Forces by Peter Levenda (50%)
Biography of Abraham Lincoln (10%)
Remember Who You Are - Icke (5%)
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2012-10-23 11:08 am
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2012-10-21 07:22 am

Conflicting messages

Did they or didn't they?
Mixed messages out of the WH - Politicizing Iran's nuclear aspirations
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2012-10-20 10:29 am

Failed foreign policy leads to loss of lives, appears even more to follow

New information revealing the CES is sitting on information about Iran nuclear program until now.
Post here
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2012-10-15 09:13 am
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Quit poisoning yourself and those you love

[livejournal.com profile] tallblue made me aware of this. I had heard some of the issue but was not really “informed”.
This morning I invested in myself and wife by watching the video (see link directly below).
It is an eye opener! Many of the symptoms they discuss  - I experience. A sad fact is I usually feel my worst right after eating; and no I am not an over eater. I maintain a low fat diet and use only lean meat.
However – I love pizza, corn (chips, etc.) and I suspect I now know why I have the problems I do.

Invest in your life. If you have family, significant others and friends – consider it an investment in their life as well.

I’ve made it easy.

Link to video directly below should open in a separate window.
The shopper’s guide is linked below as well.
Smart phone apps instructions referenced below too.

GMO Food: Genetic Roulette

Link to No GMO Shopper’s Guide

Android: Play Store: APPS > search > True Food Network: it is a non-GMO shopping guide for your phone.
Apple has an app as well.

And YES – the FDA has let you & I down.

Yes they are in bed with Monsanto.

Yes criminal and civil charges should be filed against both parties.

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2012-10-14 02:35 pm
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In response

Obama camp tips hand on debate, hints President will attack Romney on Bain.

Really? You want to go there?

May I suggest….

Mr. Romney in response to the president, “In preparation for the debate I was trying to research your private sector experience president and realized you had NONE which could explain why our economy is where it is today.”

(Bowing) Your welcome :O)

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2012-10-14 11:19 am
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The Big Bird counterattack

By Published: October 11

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No mystery about the trajectory of this race. It was static for months as President Obama held a marginal lead. Then came the conventions. The Republicans squandered Tampa; the Democrats got a 3- to 4-point bounce out of Charlotte.

And kept it. Until the first debate. In 90 minutes, Mitt Romney wiped out the bump — and maybe more.

Democrats are shellshocked and left searching for excuses. Start with scapegoats: the hapless John Kerry, Obama’s sparring partner in the practice debates, for going too soft on the boss; then the debate moderator for not exerting enough control.

The Obama campaign’s plea that the commander in chief could find no shelter under Jim Lehrer’s desk did not exactly bolster Obama’s standing. Moreover, the moderator’s job is not to control the flow of argument, but to simply enforce an even time split.

Lehrer did. In fact, Obama took more time than Romney — 41 / 2 minutes more — while actually speaking 500 fewer words. Romney knew what he thought and said it. Obama kept looking around hoping for the words to come to him. They didn’t.

After the scapegoats came the excuses.

Obama had a bad night. He was off his game.

Nonsense. This is Obama’s game. Great at delivering telepromptered addresses to adoring Germans and swooning students. But he’s not very good on his feet.

His problem is that he doesn’t think so. He not only believes his own press, he believes his own mythology. He actually said (in 2007): “I think that I’m a better speechwriter than my speechwriters. I know more about policies on any particular issue than my policy directors. And . . . I’m a better political director than my political director.”

Obama is a man of considerable intelligence. But he’s not half as transcendently smart as he thinks he is.

He needs a servant in his chariot reminding him that he’s not an immortal. Of course, after the debate the entire Democratic Party told him he’s a dud. Wrong again. He’s neither lord nor commoner. He’s just an above-average politician who needs a very good night in one of the next two debates.

He was weighed down by the burdens of office.

Ah yes, the burdens of office. Like going on “The View” while meeting with not a single foreign leader at the United Nations. Like flying to a Vegas campaign rally the day after a U.S. consulate is sacked and the ambassador murdered. Like rushing off to New York for a night with Jay-Z and Beyonce.

Rocky Mountain altitude is a better excuse than that. (Thank you, Al Gore.)

Reductionism.

Stephanie Cutter and David Axelrod both said (amazing coincidence) that Romney won on “style points.”

So, the most charismatic politician since Pierre Elliot Trudeau was beaten by an android — on style? I concede that Obama’s reaction shots were awful. But he lost on radio too. And in print. Read the transcript. This wasn’t about appearances. Romney didn’t win on style. He won on an avalanche of substance, on a complete takedown of six months of Obama portraying Romney as enemy of the middle class, friend and footman of the rich.

That was the heart of the Obama campaign. After all, with crushing debt, chronically high unemployment and the worst economic recovery since World War II, Obama can’t run on stewardship. Nor on the future. He has no serious agenda. Nothing on entitlements, nothing on tax reform, nothing on debt, nothing on the fiscal cliff.

So when Romney completely deflated that six-month “kill Romney” strategy — by looking reasonable, responsible, authoritative in demonstrating how his policies would help the middle class by stimulating economic growth — what did Obama have left?

Big Bird. The stupidest ad in memory. Has any president ever run an ad so small and trivial? After an unprecedented shellacking in a debate about very large issues, this is his response?

The Middle East is ablaze, the country drowning in debt, the fiscal cliff looming — and Obama’s great pitch is that only he can save the $130 million enterprise that is the Sesame Workshop?

An inspiring second-term agenda: subsidies for Big Bird and free contraceptives for Sandra Fluke.

Obama has two debates to come up with something better. If he can’t, he will double down on his “Romney the menace” line. It might still work. But a word of advice: Your administration having prevaricated unceasingly — and scandalously — about the massacre in Benghazi, I’d be cautious about the “he’s a liar” line of attack.

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2012-10-12 02:28 pm
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Relationship of prayer & Bible meditation

"Prayer without meditation on the Word of God will disintegrate into humanistic spirituality. It will simply reflect our own fallen ideas and feelings - not God's. And meditation, without the humility of desperate prayer, will create proud legalism or hopeless despair. Without prayer we will try to fulfill the Word in our strength and think we are succeeding and so we become proud Pharisees; or we will realize that we are not succeeding and give up in despair."
~ John Piper

Been meaning to share this for at least a couple months. It took a few readings for my mind to begin to wrap around it. Its now in my LJ for posterity.
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2012-10-11 07:33 am
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Next home

This is it!
The type of home I want us to purchase.
I want it in more of a woods setting but this is definitely it.
Including the color :O)
Dream BIG!

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